If there's one thing I've learned over the past few days, it's that NOTHING in this world is sacred anymore. I've always made myself believe that being in the Military was the best way for us to ensure our familiy was always taken care of. Not because of the ignorant believes of some, that you make a ton of money in the service, which I'm sorry to dissapoint so many of you, 'cause it really isn't. Oh, and rent isn't "free" either, we pay rent, it simnply gets taken directly out of our paycheck.
No, but because we had the feeling of stability. You can't just "get fired" in the Army. Well not unless you screw up big time. You have somewhat ok medicare. Me personally I always felt saver living on a miltary installation. Well, and up until now, we thought our pay was ALWAYS ensured. Ha! Naive little people we are.
Yes the government didn't shut down. Yes we are going to get paid on the 15th. It's great, I'm happy, no I am thrilled. But WHY, I ask this great government, WHY do I have to be put in the situation where I don't know whether I will have a next paycheck to pay bills and buy food? Why am I being put in a situation where I have to worry about any of that? Why you effin sons of bitches would you even for just a slight second consider, making your service men and women, continue to still fight for your gucci and dolce asses, but NOT paying them while you still cash in on your high ass salaries?
I've stood my ground and I've made my point clear over and over and I'm exhausted. I am truly exhausted. I've come across so many ignorant low lives over the last few days, it's not even funny. I don't want to waste another minute arguing about it. Especially not with people that aren't worth it.
As for me and my family, I think we've made our own decisions how we're gonna get out of this one. It is time to move on.
United States of America. Land of the "free". Puts that all in a new light if you ask me.
And while the world is shaking their heads and laughing behind closed doors about how pathetic this government truly is, there's an endless number of ongoing wars. It's making me sick.
Ivory Coast, Lybia, Iraq, Afghanistan, Nigeria, Syria just to name some of them.
Poverty. Desperation. Natural Disasters. Brutal murders. Rape on children. The list goes on and on.
This world is such a sad place. It's filled with so much tragedy nowadays. I don't know where I went wrong that I can't seem to be watching the news without being in tears. When others can watch the news, turn them off and go on like they've just watched a re-run of desperate housewives. Doesn't this affect you people? Is it really just me who seems to think people need to stand up for what is right and take steps toward a better world? Am I the one who needs to reconsider and finally start taking it as it is and turn into a selfish being who cares about nothing but herself? I'm so sick of it. I really am. I'm teaching my children to be kind to others, to help the ones in need. Are my kids gonna think I'm some psycho nut job for wanting to make this world a better place? Is it already too late to even try???
Humanity seems to have gotten lost somewhere down the road and no one seemed to bother to turn around and pick it up. Along the way we just kept tripping over it but were to busy with ourselves to dust it off and put it back in its place.
My frustration with this world is immense. So is my disappointment with everyone in it. This world hasn't become the way it is because it just happened. It's because WE let it happen.
May God have mercy on us and bring us back to the right path.
Amen.
Turn my mic up louder I got to say something
Light weights step to the side when we come in
Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping
People on the street they panic and start running
Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme, I'm dumping
Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and
Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
Fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping
Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for
Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for
Like this war's really just a different brand of war
Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor
Like they understand you in the back of the jet
When you can't put gas in your tank
These fuckers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing the cheque
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect
For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
In their living room laughing like "what did he say?"
Amen
In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen
World is cold the bold men take action
Have to react or get blown into fractions
Ten years old it's something to see
Another kid my age drugged under a jeep
Taken and bound and found later under a tree
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me
Do you see the soldiers they're out today
They brush the dust from bullet proof vests away
It's ironic at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday
There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your market, your shops, your clothes
My dad he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show
My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine
On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside
When the rich wage war it's the poor who die
Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?"
Amen
With hands held high into the sky so blue,
As the ocean opens up to swallow you.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Good morning world
I decided today would be the day I won't let anyone irritate me with their small-town bs, whining about how miserable their lives are when they're anything but and the drama that comes with just putting yourself out there socializing with other human beings.
So. I will finally tackle the dreaded apr 8 loads of clean laundry that have desperately waiting to be put away where they belong and after our routine care program and after, what Mimi calls "being stink bug free" we are gonna take the one hour and something drive to Super Target. I may not be able to have me time and go get a sitter and get wasted with my girlfriends and cry about my oh so horrible life, yet I can still find ways to make me a little more comfortable. I just need to get out of here for a day.
So I just read on one of my many preggers apps on my phone, this article that didn't bother me much but the ladies rejoicing about it really made me think.
"A C-section sunny side.
Babies born via elective full-term C-section have less anxiety, depression, and aggression at preschool age compared with those from forceps of vacuum-assisted vaginal births, a recent study in BJOG notes. Lower levels of the stress hormone cortisol at birth may shape disposition long after delivery."
So now there's god knows how many women, saying they want a c-section because of THAT! That and well because the babies head will be round.
Uhm. Ok? So you're telling me, you'd rather get sliced open for no good reason rather than giving birth like a woman is meant to???? When the slice you open they might accidentally cut your baby. When they have to put you under (you're not awake all the time dear) you may never wake up. A c-section is surgery, it's not just a new trend. You will have a scar that will be with you for the rest of your life. You will be in a lot of pain after surgery and are less mobile than a woman who gave birth to her child the natural way.
It is beyond me, really how doctors can agree to such nonsense. When I hear "women" say things like "I want a c-section because I don't want to have to go through the pain of giving birth." Newsflash hun, what do you think surgery is gonna do? You think that's not gonna hurt?
I'm shaking my head because this just seems downright ridiculous. But hey, everyone their own. Maybe I'm just a party pooper or plain stupid for wanting (and looking forward) to once more been given the chance to squeeze an apr 9lbs baby out of my vagina. Haha.
On a side note, I think I broke my big toe yesterday when I dropped that bag of ice on it. That'd just be my luck. Last pregnancy it was my little toe when I stumbled to the bathroom in the middle of the night, half asleep of course, and hit it on the foot of the bed.
Tackle the laundry. Right.
Happy Sunday.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
OMG
I'm sorry but is today national make excuses for my whining day??? Remember one thing - there's always someone who has it worse than you do. You may think YOUR reasoning justifies your whining but if you think about it, is it really justified?
We all have a different tolerance for pain and what not but I mean seriously, as an adult shouldn't you have some sort of ability to see things for what they really are? I don't like biting my tongue, if you know me just a little bit then you should know that's not the kind of person I am. But I will leave it as it is now. For now.
Today was the day of the fundraiser and the lord knows I'm glad it's over. I've put way too much onto myself and realized it way too late. I hope little A forgives me for all the stress I've put him through over the past week. Especially the past two days. But it's over and the end result is $228.21 raised for the Red Cross in Japan. Not a whole lot but I'd say it's better than nothing. And seeing how some people came together to give to the needy just makes my heart smile.
Ha. I love it when Mimi sees the McDonald's commercial and yells "Mommy it's SPACEMAN STEEEEWEEEDDD" she doesn't quite get it's Spaceman Stew :O) Makes me giggle just thinking of it. She's too silly.
I talked to Tristan's girlfriend's mom today about his birthday party. She was gonna come, but now she isn't because her mom remembered it's the weekend of one of the many dumb military balls (I am serious, how can they still be interesting or anything like fun when they have them every other month????) which this time around will be held at Disneyland so they're making a 4day weekend out of it. So, I'm gonna have to break it to him somehow. Honestly, just thinking about having to tell him is almost heart breaking. He's gonna be crushed that's for sure.
Sigh.
I need to get some rest. Some actual rest. I'm getting more irritated by the minute now. There's just too much nonesense and boohoo's.
Anywho.
I heart Schmussies :O) Schmussies make me smile.
We all have a different tolerance for pain and what not but I mean seriously, as an adult shouldn't you have some sort of ability to see things for what they really are? I don't like biting my tongue, if you know me just a little bit then you should know that's not the kind of person I am. But I will leave it as it is now. For now.
Today was the day of the fundraiser and the lord knows I'm glad it's over. I've put way too much onto myself and realized it way too late. I hope little A forgives me for all the stress I've put him through over the past week. Especially the past two days. But it's over and the end result is $228.21 raised for the Red Cross in Japan. Not a whole lot but I'd say it's better than nothing. And seeing how some people came together to give to the needy just makes my heart smile.
Ha. I love it when Mimi sees the McDonald's commercial and yells "Mommy it's SPACEMAN STEEEEWEEEDDD" she doesn't quite get it's Spaceman Stew :O) Makes me giggle just thinking of it. She's too silly.
I talked to Tristan's girlfriend's mom today about his birthday party. She was gonna come, but now she isn't because her mom remembered it's the weekend of one of the many dumb military balls (I am serious, how can they still be interesting or anything like fun when they have them every other month????) which this time around will be held at Disneyland so they're making a 4day weekend out of it. So, I'm gonna have to break it to him somehow. Honestly, just thinking about having to tell him is almost heart breaking. He's gonna be crushed that's for sure.
Sigh.
I need to get some rest. Some actual rest. I'm getting more irritated by the minute now. There's just too much nonesense and boohoo's.
Anywho.
I heart Schmussies :O) Schmussies make me smile.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
My early rant...
Is it too early in the day to rant? I think NOT. In fact it's never too early to rant. So. Here goes nothing.
As you may know, I am putting together a fundraiser for Japan, for this weekend. It's a Garage Sale / Bake Sale with ALL proceeds going to the Red Cross in Japan. I'm putting a lot of time and effort into it, not to mention financial aids. Nothing in this world comes free unfortunately, not even on a military post.
So, I posted the official flyer on bookoo.com for Fort Irwin, so more people would read it and hopefully find it in the kindness of their heart to help out any way possible.
Not only is this place seriously lacking on people that like to give to others, no, we are also kinda short in the decency deptartment.
Ok here's the flyer, just so you have an idea how horribly WRONG it is what I'm doing.
So this one "person" sent me an email in regards to the flyer telling me it's basically wrong, and we should be giving to AMERICANS instead since there are so many homeless and starving "in your own backyard".
"But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love"
For crying out loud, can't you even post a flyer for a fundraiser online without having some ignorant stupid b****h tell you, it's WRONG and you should be giving to the homeless here in the States instead????
How could it ever be WRONG to give your time and money to ppl that have lost EVERYTHING due to a natural disaster???? If you're all out there helping the "homeless and hungry in your own backyard" then hey way to go, but if you just like to talk s**t because you're ignorant and selfish then please stare at your feet and shut the hell up! It irritates me beyond words!
"Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love?"
And just for the record, I support World Vision financially, I give to all sorts of organizations that help all over the world, I give to the AMERICAN Red Cross and am also a volunteer for the AMERICAN Red Cross, I give donations to the local food pantry. I do a LOT unlike a lot of ppl I know. So. Before you tell me I am doing something WRONG with working my butt off trying to help Japan as much as I possibly could, think for just one second when was the last time YOUR ignorant ass has done ANYTHING for anyone that DIDN'T benefit yourself???!!!!!!!!
Every person on this planet is entitled to their own opinion and we can't all always agree, that's just how it is. And I get that. But I am so sick sick SICK and tired of hypocrites. If all these people talking s**t about non profit organizations helping in disaster relief in other countries, would actually go DO something about all they think is wrong here in the States, then it wouldn't be this bad!!!
Where are all the AMERICAN Red Cross volunteers? There's not a single one I know other than the ones I met because I'm working with them. And believe me, I know A LOT of people!!!
"Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself
Where is the love?"
Stop bitching, start a revolution!
Rant over. For now.
"We only got
ONE WORLD
That's all we got"
As you may know, I am putting together a fundraiser for Japan, for this weekend. It's a Garage Sale / Bake Sale with ALL proceeds going to the Red Cross in Japan. I'm putting a lot of time and effort into it, not to mention financial aids. Nothing in this world comes free unfortunately, not even on a military post.
So, I posted the official flyer on bookoo.com for Fort Irwin, so more people would read it and hopefully find it in the kindness of their heart to help out any way possible.
Not only is this place seriously lacking on people that like to give to others, no, we are also kinda short in the decency deptartment.
So this one "person" sent me an email in regards to the flyer telling me it's basically wrong, and we should be giving to AMERICANS instead since there are so many homeless and starving "in your own backyard".
"But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love"
For crying out loud, can't you even post a flyer for a fundraiser online without having some ignorant stupid b****h tell you, it's WRONG and you should be giving to the homeless here in the States instead????
How could it ever be WRONG to give your time and money to ppl that have lost EVERYTHING due to a natural disaster???? If you're all out there helping the "homeless and hungry in your own backyard" then hey way to go, but if you just like to talk s**t because you're ignorant and selfish then please stare at your feet and shut the hell up! It irritates me beyond words!
"Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love?"
And just for the record, I support World Vision financially, I give to all sorts of organizations that help all over the world, I give to the AMERICAN Red Cross and am also a volunteer for the AMERICAN Red Cross, I give donations to the local food pantry. I do a LOT unlike a lot of ppl I know. So. Before you tell me I am doing something WRONG with working my butt off trying to help Japan as much as I possibly could, think for just one second when was the last time YOUR ignorant ass has done ANYTHING for anyone that DIDN'T benefit yourself???!!!!!!!!
Every person on this planet is entitled to their own opinion and we can't all always agree, that's just how it is. And I get that. But I am so sick sick SICK and tired of hypocrites. If all these people talking s**t about non profit organizations helping in disaster relief in other countries, would actually go DO something about all they think is wrong here in the States, then it wouldn't be this bad!!!
Where are all the AMERICAN Red Cross volunteers? There's not a single one I know other than the ones I met because I'm working with them. And believe me, I know A LOT of people!!!
"Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself
Where is the love?"
Stop bitching, start a revolution!
Rant over. For now.
"We only got
ONE WORLD
That's all we got"
Monday, March 28, 2011
Is "me time" overrated?
Today was a good day.
First of all I must say, I am again, just like when I was pregnant with Tristan, in LOVE LOVE LOVE with Capri Sun Cherry :O) Let's just keep them fingers and toes and what not crossed that I won't, like when I was pregnant with Tristan, will gain 70lbs lol Actually let's make that a - (minus) "lol" because it simply wouldn't be funny. It never was and never will be. For some reason now my mind is drifting and I am reminded that I'm D U E for my second round of glucose testing which is like the most dreadful and disgusting torture I've ever had to endure. I just hope this time around it'll be easier, seeing how I'm not as nauseous anynmore as I was the first time they made me drink that nasty ol' stuff. And I'm sorry, but anyone saying it tastes good when it's right out of the fridge must have some serious issues lol That stuff's just plain
G R O S S! I wonder if I can get away with not doing it? I mean really what would happen? They can't force me now can they? Childish I know.
Anyway.
Today I was named "admin" of a fb page called "yes I work, I'm a stay at home mom". One out of I believe 5 admins with a page with way over 12,000 followers? Well I must say it is mainly the reason my day went as great as it did. I did a short introduction on the page and I have never, and I mean never, had so many people, well in this case women, women that have never met me, tell me that I am doing a great job over here and that they're thankful for my husband's and MY service! I have never had so many, aknowledge that there's not just the soldier who's giving up so much for his country, there's always someone behind that soldier. In this case, a loving and supporting wife and mother to his children. They wished us strength, luck and reminded me to make sure I make time "for myself". Me time.
It got me thinking. What really is "me time" about? Is it something I'm entitled to? If so, what is it that I do that gives me the right to think I deserve "me time"? When is the best time to have "me time" and most importantly, what really IS "me time"???
I honestly can't tell you when I truly did something by myself, for myself, for the last time. Something that benefit no one other than me. I keep telling myself, I really need my eyebrows done. I need a pedicure. Just simple things like that. Things a lot of moms around me do without any questions asked. Whether their husbands are home or in the field, deployed or TDY. They just do it. They'll leave their kids with a friend or an extra two hours at daycare without feeling guilty about it. Should they? I don't know. Since my husband is gone for a year, the CYS (for the non military, child youth services) gives me 16 free hours of childcare per child, per month. So while Tristan is in school, I could easily drop Mimi off at hourly care and get some of this "me time". Right?
Well I think I've used 9 hours so far this month, out of my 16, and the month will be over in a couple of days. What does that tell you? What should it tell ME? I'm not quite sure if I should take advantage of it or if I should feel guilty. Well it's not really about that it's more the fact that I simply DO feel guilty. Or I would if I'd actually do it. Sure when you have a prenatal appt it comes in handy not having to drag her along and have the staff give you the "did you not read the sign that says do NOT bring your children???" -looks but you know these days I quite frankly don't give a rats bottom if people like me bringing my kids or not. It's not like I have a choice.
So back to this "me time". Other than pedicure and eyebrows I really can't tell you what else I'd do if I should ever have such time to myself. I don't think it'd feel right. I'd feel like something or more someone is missing. I got used to having Mimi around all day so quickly that I don't think I could be without her. Isn't that kind of selfish? Maybe I'm just not giving myelf any "me time" because I'm afraid of being alone? Is "me time" really maybe only for people that don't have any fear? They don't mind being by themselves? Is this my way of coping? Am I truly using my children to make myself believe that I'm ok with being alone yet again, for another year, being pregnant with the possibility of giving birth without my husband by my side?
I never thougth about it that way until today.
I think this here, this is my "me time". I'm all by myself in front of my comp...NOTEBOOK. I'm digging deep and I'm processing. Yes, this is it. It may not fit the standard and it may not be what society intends but it's enough for me.
Here in a little bit I'll crawl onto my couch with Mimi and cuddle until either one of us falls asleep and I won't regret a second of it. My children are my life. There all I have right now, there all that keeps me going while my husband is away. So why would I want to be away from them unless I absolutely have to?
Me time. It's the time I don't have to give to people other than my family. My husband. My son. My daughter. And the life growing inside of me. Being able to spend every second of the day with them, THAT is my "me time". I don't need anything else. I wouldn't ask for anything else.
Here's to my pride and joy. My love. My life. My everything.
Here's to "me time".
First of all I must say, I am again, just like when I was pregnant with Tristan, in LOVE LOVE LOVE with Capri Sun Cherry :O) Let's just keep them fingers and toes and what not crossed that I won't, like when I was pregnant with Tristan, will gain 70lbs lol Actually let's make that a - (minus) "lol" because it simply wouldn't be funny. It never was and never will be. For some reason now my mind is drifting and I am reminded that I'm D U E for my second round of glucose testing which is like the most dreadful and disgusting torture I've ever had to endure. I just hope this time around it'll be easier, seeing how I'm not as nauseous anynmore as I was the first time they made me drink that nasty ol' stuff. And I'm sorry, but anyone saying it tastes good when it's right out of the fridge must have some serious issues lol That stuff's just plain
G R O S S! I wonder if I can get away with not doing it? I mean really what would happen? They can't force me now can they? Childish I know.
Anyway.
Today I was named "admin" of a fb page called "yes I work, I'm a stay at home mom". One out of I believe 5 admins with a page with way over 12,000 followers? Well I must say it is mainly the reason my day went as great as it did. I did a short introduction on the page and I have never, and I mean never, had so many people, well in this case women, women that have never met me, tell me that I am doing a great job over here and that they're thankful for my husband's and MY service! I have never had so many, aknowledge that there's not just the soldier who's giving up so much for his country, there's always someone behind that soldier. In this case, a loving and supporting wife and mother to his children. They wished us strength, luck and reminded me to make sure I make time "for myself". Me time.
It got me thinking. What really is "me time" about? Is it something I'm entitled to? If so, what is it that I do that gives me the right to think I deserve "me time"? When is the best time to have "me time" and most importantly, what really IS "me time"???
I honestly can't tell you when I truly did something by myself, for myself, for the last time. Something that benefit no one other than me. I keep telling myself, I really need my eyebrows done. I need a pedicure. Just simple things like that. Things a lot of moms around me do without any questions asked. Whether their husbands are home or in the field, deployed or TDY. They just do it. They'll leave their kids with a friend or an extra two hours at daycare without feeling guilty about it. Should they? I don't know. Since my husband is gone for a year, the CYS (for the non military, child youth services) gives me 16 free hours of childcare per child, per month. So while Tristan is in school, I could easily drop Mimi off at hourly care and get some of this "me time". Right?
Well I think I've used 9 hours so far this month, out of my 16, and the month will be over in a couple of days. What does that tell you? What should it tell ME? I'm not quite sure if I should take advantage of it or if I should feel guilty. Well it's not really about that it's more the fact that I simply DO feel guilty. Or I would if I'd actually do it. Sure when you have a prenatal appt it comes in handy not having to drag her along and have the staff give you the "did you not read the sign that says do NOT bring your children???" -looks but you know these days I quite frankly don't give a rats bottom if people like me bringing my kids or not. It's not like I have a choice.
So back to this "me time". Other than pedicure and eyebrows I really can't tell you what else I'd do if I should ever have such time to myself. I don't think it'd feel right. I'd feel like something or more someone is missing. I got used to having Mimi around all day so quickly that I don't think I could be without her. Isn't that kind of selfish? Maybe I'm just not giving myelf any "me time" because I'm afraid of being alone? Is "me time" really maybe only for people that don't have any fear? They don't mind being by themselves? Is this my way of coping? Am I truly using my children to make myself believe that I'm ok with being alone yet again, for another year, being pregnant with the possibility of giving birth without my husband by my side?
I never thougth about it that way until today.
I think this here, this is my "me time". I'm all by myself in front of my comp...NOTEBOOK. I'm digging deep and I'm processing. Yes, this is it. It may not fit the standard and it may not be what society intends but it's enough for me.
Here in a little bit I'll crawl onto my couch with Mimi and cuddle until either one of us falls asleep and I won't regret a second of it. My children are my life. There all I have right now, there all that keeps me going while my husband is away. So why would I want to be away from them unless I absolutely have to?
Me time. It's the time I don't have to give to people other than my family. My husband. My son. My daughter. And the life growing inside of me. Being able to spend every second of the day with them, THAT is my "me time". I don't need anything else. I wouldn't ask for anything else.
Here's to my pride and joy. My love. My life. My everything.
Here's to "me time".
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Wait - I forgot
Ha! I almost forgot! I got the Red Cross on board, they're sponsoring my fundraiser :O) also I'll be an official Red Cross Volunteer as of next Tuesday.
I already have 5 people that are volunteering to help with the fundraiser so now the weather only has to be nice as predicted for next saturday and the Army just needs to get paid (which is still up in the air) and we should be good to go :O)
Well I still have a ton of work ahead of me this coming week until the actual day of the fundraiser but I'm in good spirits.
I'm proud. I'm very proud.
I already have 5 people that are volunteering to help with the fundraiser so now the weather only has to be nice as predicted for next saturday and the Army just needs to get paid (which is still up in the air) and we should be good to go :O)
Well I still have a ton of work ahead of me this coming week until the actual day of the fundraiser but I'm in good spirits.
I'm proud. I'm very proud.
Please please please
Good morning. It's been a good night. The cats for once decided to stay quiet or maybe I was just out cold and didn't hear them. Either way it worked out to my advantage. I got more than 4 hours of sleep and feel somewhat rested. Mission accomplished.
Nonetheless the kids are already NOT listening and acting up so I can only imagine what this day's gonna be like. Sigh. Yeah I know, cut 'em some slack, their Daddy just left but I mean come on, MY HUSBAND just left too and you don't see me running around lying every 15 seconds, NOT doing my chores without being told to 50 billion times, peeing my pants 10 times a day and just being a total brat, and the FIGHTING, the constant never ending FIGHTING over as much as who's dust corn is bigger! Don't get me wrong it's not that I'm not understanding or anything, I'm just a bit frustrated and annoyed which I wanna believe I have the right to.
So anyway. Please please please let these kids act normal again. Or is this the norm? Who knows.
"they'll go through phases" yadiyadiyada, I've heard it all, been there done that. I've been a mom for a little more than just two days, it'd just be nice if a baby would come with a manual for when they get older. Cause the baby stage is a piece of cake compared to when they start growing up, believe you me.
Sigh. Well, I better go and find my happy place now and hide until they're 18 since they're already fighting again. Lord have mercy...
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