If there's one thing I really really REALLY hate, it's when I'm being lied to and KNOW that I'm being lied to. I'll never forget the first time my son lied straight to my face without any regrets. The times after that didn't real much different to be honest. It doesn't matter how many times it happens, it hurts the same each time.
I usually don't mind liars, well I do mind I just don't care if that makes any sense?
I just think it's pathetic when you are not able to tell someone the truth. If you're not adult enough to talk to me on that kind of level then please oh god please don't waste my precious time.
But when it comes to loved ones, real loved ones, the ones I've chosen not the ones that are automatically considered "loved ones" 'cause they're blood, now when they lie to me, I just wanna die 'cause it hurts SOOOOO much.
Now I know a lot of times I may blow things up when there's no need to. Especially now, with my hormones messing with me on a daily basis, it's hard to stay focussed and on target. But I think I still know when people are being dishonest with me. And right now I really have to ask myself, WHY? Why would you lie to me about something as pathetic as your pride and your stubbornness? Just to get your effin way, when you know in the end, you'll hear a big fat "I told you so"?! I seriously don't get it sometimes why people are like that. Not giving a shit about what's at stake. Maybe not even realizing what's at stake. But definetely always sure enough that they have to get their way, no matter the cost. Well sometimes the cost is just too great.
The second most disgusting thing to me is when people think that I'm stupid enough to actually fall for their crap. Let me tell you something, just because I don't call you out on your pathetic lie, doesn't mean I haven't caught you on it. I simply chose to judge you for it in my head and reconsider if you're even worth being around seeing how you think it's neccessary to feed me your crap. I've actually gotten rid of a lot of "friends" recently because of just that. I can't stand liars. I just can't.
Combine lying with thinking I'm stupid and you're definetely on route to be officially off my buddy list.
Geez, I'm seriously so sick right now that I'm literally sitting here telling myself "do not throw up, it's not worth it". And it's not, I know that. When it comes down to it, I have to keep going no matter what, I have to keep planning ahead and just take one day at a time, making decisions that are right FOR ME.
Oh boy, now I'm giggling. It really didn't come so unexpectedly. I should have seen this coming, it's not like this hasn't happened before. Silly me. But you know what, it REALLY isn't worth it. There's no point in arguing with a liar, because a liar who choses to lie straight to your face, won't ever admit to such thing even if you did point it out, so why really would you even consider mentioning it? You know what's going on, I know what's going on.
End of story.
Liar liar pants on fire, hanging from a chicken wire.
It's funny how I hear this about 10 times a day. It's Mimi's faorite new song. Well her version goes more like this "liar liar liar liar hanging from a chicken wire - HA".
If there was a way to spare my children from this kind of pain that sooner or later will be inflicted on them by someone they trust and love, any way at all, I'd do it.
"So the pain begins, as the music fades. And I'm left here, with more than I can take. If you lift me up, just get me through this night. I know I'll rest tomorrow, and I'll be strong enough to try. When the static clears, and all is said and done, I will realize that we all need someone. If you lift me up, just get me through this night. I know I'll rest tomorow and I'll be strong enough to try. So when you see me crashing, and there's nowhere left to fall, will you lift me even higher to rise above this all?!"
