If there's one thing I've learned over the past few days, it's that NOTHING in this world is sacred anymore. I've always made myself believe that being in the Military was the best way for us to ensure our familiy was always taken care of. Not because of the ignorant believes of some, that you make a ton of money in the service, which I'm sorry to dissapoint so many of you, 'cause it really isn't. Oh, and rent isn't "free" either, we pay rent, it simnply gets taken directly out of our paycheck.
No, but because we had the feeling of stability. You can't just "get fired" in the Army. Well not unless you screw up big time. You have somewhat ok medicare. Me personally I always felt saver living on a miltary installation. Well, and up until now, we thought our pay was ALWAYS ensured. Ha! Naive little people we are.
Yes the government didn't shut down. Yes we are going to get paid on the 15th. It's great, I'm happy, no I am thrilled. But WHY, I ask this great government, WHY do I have to be put in the situation where I don't know whether I will have a next paycheck to pay bills and buy food? Why am I being put in a situation where I have to worry about any of that? Why you effin sons of bitches would you even for just a slight second consider, making your service men and women, continue to still fight for your gucci and dolce asses, but NOT paying them while you still cash in on your high ass salaries?
I've stood my ground and I've made my point clear over and over and I'm exhausted. I am truly exhausted. I've come across so many ignorant low lives over the last few days, it's not even funny. I don't want to waste another minute arguing about it. Especially not with people that aren't worth it.
As for me and my family, I think we've made our own decisions how we're gonna get out of this one. It is time to move on.
United States of America. Land of the "free". Puts that all in a new light if you ask me.
And while the world is shaking their heads and laughing behind closed doors about how pathetic this government truly is, there's an endless number of ongoing wars. It's making me sick.
Ivory Coast, Lybia, Iraq, Afghanistan, Nigeria, Syria just to name some of them.
Poverty. Desperation. Natural Disasters. Brutal murders. Rape on children. The list goes on and on.
This world is such a sad place. It's filled with so much tragedy nowadays. I don't know where I went wrong that I can't seem to be watching the news without being in tears. When others can watch the news, turn them off and go on like they've just watched a re-run of desperate housewives. Doesn't this affect you people? Is it really just me who seems to think people need to stand up for what is right and take steps toward a better world? Am I the one who needs to reconsider and finally start taking it as it is and turn into a selfish being who cares about nothing but herself? I'm so sick of it. I really am. I'm teaching my children to be kind to others, to help the ones in need. Are my kids gonna think I'm some psycho nut job for wanting to make this world a better place? Is it already too late to even try???
Humanity seems to have gotten lost somewhere down the road and no one seemed to bother to turn around and pick it up. Along the way we just kept tripping over it but were to busy with ourselves to dust it off and put it back in its place.
My frustration with this world is immense. So is my disappointment with everyone in it. This world hasn't become the way it is because it just happened. It's because WE let it happen.
May God have mercy on us and bring us back to the right path.
Amen.
Turn my mic up louder I got to say something
Light weights step to the side when we come in
Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping
People on the street they panic and start running
Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme, I'm dumping
Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and
Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
Fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping
Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for
Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for
Like this war's really just a different brand of war
Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor
Like they understand you in the back of the jet
When you can't put gas in your tank
These fuckers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing the cheque
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect
For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
In their living room laughing like "what did he say?"
Amen
In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen
World is cold the bold men take action
Have to react or get blown into fractions
Ten years old it's something to see
Another kid my age drugged under a jeep
Taken and bound and found later under a tree
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me
Do you see the soldiers they're out today
They brush the dust from bullet proof vests away
It's ironic at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday
There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your market, your shops, your clothes
My dad he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show
My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine
On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside
When the rich wage war it's the poor who die
Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?"
Amen
With hands held high into the sky so blue,
As the ocean opens up to swallow you.
Thank you for posting this! I agree with everything you just said! We live in a different country from what I knew growing up. I miss the days of innocence. I miss the days where everyone is compassionate. I miss the days where everyone is considerate and kind to their fellow man & woman. Now, we live in a country that does not lead by example. They have brought the American standard down. We no longer shine and stand out from the rest. We are mocked by other countries. We have fallen. I long for the days where America will shine again. Where the people are united instead of divided.
ReplyDeleteThis whole government shutdown was scary and such a wake up call. Now, I know that there is no such thing as job security within the military. And I have realized that the military are just pawns in their game.
The end result of today is so bittersweet. Yes, I am ecstatic that my husband will be paid and that we won't dry up our savings, but sad that this government of ours would do such a thing to the members of the military and their families. They are the ones putting their lives on the line for everyone and this act was a huge smack in the face.
Enough of my ranting. Your blog post was well said. Thank you!
I truly hope and believe that there are good people in the world... for when that hope is gone there is no hope to go on. Beautiful post and poem.
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